Count your blessings

I just felt I needed to express my love to my Heavenly Father for all the blessings that I have.  I am so thankful for all the tender mercies that continue to come our way.  I am so thankful for the gospel in my life and the courage and strength it gives to go on with happiness even though my full happiness won't be fulfilled in this life time.  It gives me a great goal to strive for.  I know prayers are answered.  I know I am not alone.  I know that even though I don't fully understand right now someday I will see that Heavenly Father gave us what we needed -not what we thought we needed.

Thank you for all those who continue to remember us.  It is crazy thinking a year has gone by.  I am reliving the special memories I had of Ryan just days before our lives changed forever.  I know Heavenly Father was preparing me and I am so thankful that the morning of May 1, 2012 was a happy morning and that the last words Ryan and I ever shared were happy. 

I am so thankful for all the doctors and nurses and teachers and friends and family that helped us last year.  We couldn't have made it without you.

I recently was told about an Ensign article that has offered me much comfort.  It's titled "Trust in the Lord".  It's by Richard G. Scott from the Nov 1995 Ensign.  I encourage all to read it who are going through hard trials.  It can be found on lds.org.

I am thankful for my dear sweet husband.  He has been my rock.  I am thankful for our temple marriage and that he will be mine forever.  I am also so blessed to still have four happy healthy children on earth with me daily.  They make me smile, laugh and yes they still make me want to pull my hair out sometimes.

I am trying to focus more on the blessings I do have and not what I have lost.  For that will be ours again someday, and isn't really lost.  Ryan is on a special mission and I am so proud to be his mom and to have had 14 precious years with him.  

 

 

Newborn Ryan  March 16, 1998  (I recently came across this looking through old pictures.  He was so tiny.  He was three weeks early and weighed 5 lbs 12 oz)

 

 

 

(and daughters.  Someone sent me this sweet quote today.)