Thinking of you and your family Becky

My mother-in-law shared this special poem with me.  I want to dedicate it to Mike's cousin Becky and her family.  Tomorrow, May 10th, marks the one year anniversary of her newborn son returning back to be with his Heavenly Father.  Baby Kevin was so perfect he only needed his earthly body for a few precious hours. 

 

 

 

Welcome home, my son, I've needed you.

There is a great work here that must be done,

And no one else can do this work but you,

Welcome home, my son, I've needed you.

 

Your time on earth was short, I know,

But all the needed time was given you

To fill your mission there, and now it's through,

A greater, heavenly mission waits for you.

 

I know your earthly family grieves,

But they would have you do this work,

And I will comfort them, and solace bring

Into their hearts, replacing sorrowing.

 

You are bound by ties that last forever,

A choice son, born of goodly parents.

Death cannot separate, nor can time sever

The ties that bind your lives and love together.

 

 

 

And so tomorrow I will wear both blue and orange in honor of

our boys who are looking down on us from up above.  We love you Beck family.  You are in our thoughts and prayers on a difficult day. 

Count your blessings

I just felt I needed to express my love to my Heavenly Father for all the blessings that I have.  I am so thankful for all the tender mercies that continue to come our way.  I am so thankful for the gospel in my life and the courage and strength it gives to go on with happiness even though my full happiness won't be fulfilled in this life time.  It gives me a great goal to strive for.  I know prayers are answered.  I know I am not alone.  I know that even though I don't fully understand right now someday I will see that Heavenly Father gave us what we needed -not what we thought we needed.

Thank you for all those who continue to remember us.  It is crazy thinking a year has gone by.  I am reliving the special memories I had of Ryan just days before our lives changed forever.  I know Heavenly Father was preparing me and I am so thankful that the morning of May 1, 2012 was a happy morning and that the last words Ryan and I ever shared were happy. 

I am so thankful for all the doctors and nurses and teachers and friends and family that helped us last year.  We couldn't have made it without you.

I recently was told about an Ensign article that has offered me much comfort.  It's titled "Trust in the Lord".  It's by Richard G. Scott from the Nov 1995 Ensign.  I encourage all to read it who are going through hard trials.  It can be found on lds.org.

I am thankful for my dear sweet husband.  He has been my rock.  I am thankful for our temple marriage and that he will be mine forever.  I am also so blessed to still have four happy healthy children on earth with me daily.  They make me smile, laugh and yes they still make me want to pull my hair out sometimes.

I am trying to focus more on the blessings I do have and not what I have lost.  For that will be ours again someday, and isn't really lost.  Ryan is on a special mission and I am so proud to be his mom and to have had 14 precious years with him.  

 

 

Newborn Ryan  March 16, 1998  (I recently came across this looking through old pictures.  He was so tiny.  He was three weeks early and weighed 5 lbs 12 oz)

 

 

 

(and daughters.  Someone sent me this sweet quote today.)